On Writing, and… I Got Published.

I’ve always loved writing.  There’s something endlessly fascinating about putting words together.  I envision what comes out of my head as visible music, where the words touch, repel, arch, and dance with each other.  When I read the words of others, sometimes it feels like taking in a song through my eyes.  Words have frequencies and cadence.  No person puts them together in the same way and each time, the result is a unique song that to be repeated, shared, and revisited.  Good writers weave thick chords of musicality into their words that can be examined and felt over, and over, again.

Writing helps organize my feelings.  If one goes to a symphony performance, there is always the tune up in the beginning.  A single note rings out, and the entire symphony joins.  For a minute, it is cacophony.  Discordant noises rub against each other.  Sometimes you hear the quick flit of a scale being played.  Then, the noise settles down and the story unfolds.  Sometimes I’m surprised at what comes out.  Sometimes I revisit what I’ve written and realize I’ve already changed my tune.

Me?  I feel like I’m more in harmonica territory, rather than full symphony.  Still, the act of writing is healing and cathartic for me, so I keep doing it.

Weeks ago, I submitted some of my writing to various places with great trepidation.  I worried about rejection, but even more than that, I knew that I wasn’t entirely clear on why I was doing it.  Mostly, I thought I wanted to reach out to a bigger audience to talk about Down syndrome.  I needed to know if my ideas were shared by more than a few friends. I needed the hope of finding connection with more people who saw parenting a child with Down syndrome similarly as I do. People who would stretch my thinking. I’ve already found many of these people through this blog but I wanted more. It was also an act of spreading my writing wings, as one friend so aptly described it.

Finally, I wanted to know if anything I was writing struck a chord with anyone who didn’t already know me.  I’d had plenty of people I didn’t personally know follow this blog, but part of me questioned it.  Maybe this is reflects my own lack of self-esteem.  Yeah, save it for the therapist, I know.  Problem is, therapy is expensive, so here I am instead.

About those submissions.  Mamalode took my post about my sister dying of SIDS and is running it today.  What I wrote was only tangentially about Down syndrome, which I initially thought was disappointing, but ultimately, it feels good.  It felt good to hear that someone else thought what I had to say was valuable.  Plus, not everything has to be about Down syndrome.  I ponder Down syndrome and disability a lot, but I also realize that it might show a emphasis in my daily thoughts that isn’t there.  I realized that this has been an act of spreading my wings, after all.

So… I’d be eternally grateful if you visited my story on Mamalode (click HERE) and if you’re so inclined, please share with anyone who would find it meaningful.

Well, what started out as a short post turned into something completely different.  Thanks for reading, world.

12 Comments on “On Writing, and… I Got Published.”

  1. Stephanie says:

    Yay! It’s nice to get validated every once in awhile, right? Congrats! I enjoyed that piece the first time you published it here on your blog. Your writing always gets me thinking!

  2. Holly says:

    It’s a powerful piece, I’m not surprised it was accepted.

  3. Jenny says:

    I think you are one of the most gifted writers I have come across…And that piece about your sister in particular was beautifully written! Congrats on being published. I am sure this is just the beginning for you :)

  4. Mardra says:

    WooHooo! Good work.

  5. Miriam says:

    Congratulations! You are an amazing writer- I don’t know you, I don’t know how I stumbled upon your blog, and I read your writing just because I enjoy it :-)

  6. Lisa says:

    Congratulations, my friend. You are such a beautiful writer. I cried the first time I read that, and I cried again this time.

  7. Galit says:

    Congratulations! You are a talented writer. You always make me think even when (or is it, especially when?) I don’t agree with you. This piece was poignant, and in a way, so appropriate for this day of national mourning and introspection about the things that truly matter in life.

  8. Diane says:

    Congratulations! I’m not a bit surprised because you are a fantastic writer!

  9. Leigh Ann Arnold says:

    Congrats, we’ll deserved!

  10. jisun says:

    Thank you all! Your words mean so much to me.

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